Reality Cheque

The past few weeks have been something out of a boring novel for me. If I had to sum it all up in a couple of words, I would say:

The real world aint so friendly after all.

When you are caged up in a box and all you see is the outside, it's hard to imagine anything else but what you see. Am I right?
Well, that's how it's been for me until recently.
I could not wait to start 'life', being done with school {for now} was just amazing, I wanted to get a job, could not wait to move out and find my own place to stay {away from the university}. Everything {in my head} just seemed so perfect.


Until, I had to actually start
A. looking for a job
B. finding a place to stay

So far, neither have come to my rescue so we can officially call it world 2 Lu3Lu 0

I don't know why I expected things to be so easy, maybe it's because I see other people do it and it seems pretty easy.
I have two friends that can find a place to stay just like that.
I have another friend that can get a job/position/anything just like that.
But when I try, not so much.

In all fairness, I have had opportunities presented to me, which I am thankful for, so on a scale of 1 to stranded I fair pretty well, but the only problem is I only get so far before the end of the road and to make it worse I didn't give myself enough time to do it all in.

Time is running out and the world is still showing me how good it is at what it does.
I'm just about ready to say 'cheque please' on this one and try again next time. Maybe then I can bring the right tools to fight the battle with the world.
Right now I'm low on confidence, motivation, hope, and energy
Hmmmm and here I thought I was ready to fight this one.


It's no wonder.

Have a great week!

Lu3Lu
xx

Court charges, Rant and Rave & The Silver Lining

Court Charges

You're under arrest, and by you're I mean I'm

Charges: lying in last post and abandonment and neglect of own blog.

My Plea: guilty

My Sentence: apology to blogger friends, at least one post every two days, and 600 hours 'blogunity' service.

Court adjourned.

That should teach me, I know I.......

Rant and Rave

............. pretty much fibbed in my last post, I made a whole whoo hah about how I wouldn't be M.I.A no more, and then I went and did exactly that.
I don't know if I should blame it on the funk I have been in, or writers block. But one of those is seriously responsible for my lie.
In all fairness when I said I would not go M.I.A I really meant it, I was done with exams, I was feeling very chipper, the boy was coming to visit and all seemed right with the world. That was until I logged of the internet and I realized that I actually have no plan with my own life, and my life is in the hands of other people.
Right now, all I do is just wake up, live and go back to bed again. and repeat. everyday.
But the real decisions, those are made by people I don't even know, {okay some of these people I actually do know, they just happen to be older and wiser than me and they are given the name parents}
I mentioned in my last post that I was waiting for an internship, well that's one thing out of my hands and into the hands of someone else.
I just wait around for people to decide to reject or accept me and once that's done that determines my next move.
Unbelievable.
I guess that explains my funk. You know when they say if you want something, go out and get it. It really should be if you want something go out and ask someone who has it {because someone else definitely has it} and be nice enough so they can think about giving it to you.
But I guess everything is not so bad......

The Silver Lining

....... because every dark cloud has a silver lining right?
I don't know if it's called finding myself but I've been given the time to actually find out what I want out of my life. I guess maybe I am too young to say it's set in stone, but I definitely know the direction I want to head in and what I want to do. The how I am going to get there is a tricky part, luckily we are in the 21st century and we have million modes of transportation {see what I did there} Either way it's not the end of the world when one thing doesn't work out because there is something else that can help you get to where you want to go.

Happy Friday Everyone!

Lu3Lu
xx