Blogger Challenge: Day 14

Day 14: A Picture of You Last Year--- How Have You Changed?

Considering last year was only just 29 days ago, this challenge is a bit tricky. But here is a photo that was taken of me early last year, I think it must have been in August or something.

Unfortunately it is black and white, but this is one of my favourite photos, it reminds me of a day I kind of stepped out of my comfort zone. I was ambushed into a photoshoot by one of my friends for this clothing store called Krush Culture, and even though I was reluctant to do it, I had a lot of fun at the end of the day.

They have such amazing clothes, but not clothes that you would normally find me wearing. This is why I like the picture, because I stripped myself off normal and tried extraordinary, and it worked. (",)

What has changed about me since?

Hmmmm, this is so hard, because I feel the same, and I look the same but I know I have changed.

One thing I have difficulty with is pinpointing things about myself {whether good or bad} but talking about myself just doesn't come easy. Which is one of the reasons I chose to do this challenge, it is all about me and it is something I really need to learn. 

But for now, one thing I am certain of, is I don't think the same. A lot has happened in my life since last year that has caused me to look at certain situations differently. Not all bad though, some situations have really changed me for the better. :) but I just don't see life the same way anymore. As my sister would say "It's not that serious"

Don't get me wrong, life is the most serious thing I have ever come across. But we have a habit of making it even more so than it actually is. Life is good, and if we see it for the goodness that it is, all this petty stuff won't even matter much anymore. We will see the petty for the petty and just move on.

And that is where I am at.

{here}

Lu3Lu

xx

When Pictures Say It Best

Sometimes I feel like emotions are the hardest things to explain. True, everybody goes through roughly the same things in a lifetime but emotions are tricky, only you can really feel them no matter how many times someone says "I know what you mean" or "I've been there before."

Maybe it's me, but I have a hard time telling people how I feel, my words don't come close, all I can really do is feel them.
So I often feel like when someone asks you, how are you feeling? They will never really get it, no matter how many languages you use to try and explain it, they can sympathize but that's as far as it's likely to go. {I think.}

But that doesn't stop me. I always like getting what I feel out.
Better out than in right?

Here is my attempt at explaining how I feel today.

Not knowing what comes next is really scary.
I graduate soon, and I'm back to feeling uncertain about so many things.
Relationships, what I want to do, where I want to do it.
And while I'm being honest, I am happy. I am happy that this one stepping stone of my life is almost over but what comes next?
I guess I'm just afraid of the unknown. But what I do lean on is knowing that I have the rest of my life ahead of me.

I feel like I'm running on zero energy.
The last few weeks have been really stressful for me. With all these tests and assignments and I'm not even halfway through.
I'm glad my semester is almost over because maybe then I can just slow down to take a breather but then soon after that I have exams.
So really, all it is, is I'm screwed. At least for the next month.
Hand me a red bull.

The long visit with the boy is almost over.
He leaves tomorrow.
It's so strange how much I already miss him and he hasn't left yet.
Being with him really makes me happy.
And over the past month I have been nothing but happy.
And now he leaves.

I'm confused.
There is this job opportunity that I may have but everything is pointing in the opposite direction.
Should I go for what I want, or what other people think is best for me?
It's so bad that I haven't even sent in my CV yet when I got an email almost two weeks ago asking me to send it.
I have a friend that keeps telling me to just DO IT.
but something keeps holding me back.
I know what I want. I do. I'm just not sure if everybody will support me in it?
Am I crazy?

How do you deal with your emotions? bottle them up? tell anyone who cares to listen?

Happy Wednesday Friends!

Lu3Lu
xx