When Pictures Say It Best

Sometimes I feel like emotions are the hardest things to explain. True, everybody goes through roughly the same things in a lifetime but emotions are tricky, only you can really feel them no matter how many times someone says "I know what you mean" or "I've been there before."

Maybe it's me, but I have a hard time telling people how I feel, my words don't come close, all I can really do is feel them.
So I often feel like when someone asks you, how are you feeling? They will never really get it, no matter how many languages you use to try and explain it, they can sympathize but that's as far as it's likely to go. {I think.}

But that doesn't stop me. I always like getting what I feel out.
Better out than in right?

Here is my attempt at explaining how I feel today.

Not knowing what comes next is really scary.
I graduate soon, and I'm back to feeling uncertain about so many things.
Relationships, what I want to do, where I want to do it.
And while I'm being honest, I am happy. I am happy that this one stepping stone of my life is almost over but what comes next?
I guess I'm just afraid of the unknown. But what I do lean on is knowing that I have the rest of my life ahead of me.

I feel like I'm running on zero energy.
The last few weeks have been really stressful for me. With all these tests and assignments and I'm not even halfway through.
I'm glad my semester is almost over because maybe then I can just slow down to take a breather but then soon after that I have exams.
So really, all it is, is I'm screwed. At least for the next month.
Hand me a red bull.

The long visit with the boy is almost over.
He leaves tomorrow.
It's so strange how much I already miss him and he hasn't left yet.
Being with him really makes me happy.
And over the past month I have been nothing but happy.
And now he leaves.

I'm confused.
There is this job opportunity that I may have but everything is pointing in the opposite direction.
Should I go for what I want, or what other people think is best for me?
It's so bad that I haven't even sent in my CV yet when I got an email almost two weeks ago asking me to send it.
I have a friend that keeps telling me to just DO IT.
but something keeps holding me back.
I know what I want. I do. I'm just not sure if everybody will support me in it?
Am I crazy?

How do you deal with your emotions? bottle them up? tell anyone who cares to listen?

Happy Wednesday Friends!

Lu3Lu
xx