Reality Cheque

The past few weeks have been something out of a boring novel for me. If I had to sum it all up in a couple of words, I would say:

The real world aint so friendly after all.

When you are caged up in a box and all you see is the outside, it's hard to imagine anything else but what you see. Am I right?
Well, that's how it's been for me until recently.
I could not wait to start 'life', being done with school {for now} was just amazing, I wanted to get a job, could not wait to move out and find my own place to stay {away from the university}. Everything {in my head} just seemed so perfect.


Until, I had to actually start
A. looking for a job
B. finding a place to stay

So far, neither have come to my rescue so we can officially call it world 2 Lu3Lu 0

I don't know why I expected things to be so easy, maybe it's because I see other people do it and it seems pretty easy.
I have two friends that can find a place to stay just like that.
I have another friend that can get a job/position/anything just like that.
But when I try, not so much.

In all fairness, I have had opportunities presented to me, which I am thankful for, so on a scale of 1 to stranded I fair pretty well, but the only problem is I only get so far before the end of the road and to make it worse I didn't give myself enough time to do it all in.

Time is running out and the world is still showing me how good it is at what it does.
I'm just about ready to say 'cheque please' on this one and try again next time. Maybe then I can bring the right tools to fight the battle with the world.
Right now I'm low on confidence, motivation, hope, and energy
Hmmmm and here I thought I was ready to fight this one.


It's no wonder.

Have a great week!

Lu3Lu
xx